Lyrics: It took me three whole weeks just to write this song Motivation’s dripping, I’m starting to fall I haven’t felt like this in so long And today was supposed to be different So why isn’t today any different Am I supposed to learn from my past mistakes? And how am I supposed to smile everyday? When I don’t even know what’s going on in my brain And sometimes it feels like I’m going insane And oh, why can’t I wish upon a star Without thinking of my innocence that has since fallen down so far Why can’t I be alone at night Without getting lost in the depths of my mind Oh why aren’t I alright Why can’t I wake up every morn Without thinking of the stuff I should mourn I just wanna move on with my life I’m sleeping in last nights clothes again And I’m rattling through my phone again Haven’t brushed my teeth in a bit Haven’t washed my face in a bit Haven’t showered in a little while Because when I shower I don’t have to smile So I’m alone with my scary thoughts No one there to distract me, just my thoughts (Next day) I’m sleeping in last nights clothes again And I’m rattling through my phone again Haven’t brushed my teeth in a bit Haven’t washed my face in a bit Haven’t showered in a little while Because when I shower I don’t have to smile So I’m alone with my scary thoughts No one there to distract me, just my thoughts Am I falling back to where I was last year An incurable feeling that just happened to appear It’s severe, and I can’t find a way out of this rut that I’m stuck in, nobody hears my shouts A depressive state That no matter what won’t seem to go away My confidence and sanity rapidly decay Is today the day I lose my brain?

Lyrics: Fuck, I can’t even try to relax Without thinking of shit that’s gonna go wrong next My brain is overactive and it makes me perplexed Why was I “blessed” with a brain that refuses to rest Listen I don’t know what the point is anymore If every time I sit down I think about everything in store for me Now relaxing is boring for me ‘Cause I gotta get up, get at it Until I’m soaring on the charts, see They tell me the brain can’t think about two things at once So how come when I have down time I’m thinking of everything at once Friendships, homework, shit my chest is starting to hurt Deep breaths, deep breaths, shit I need to take a breath (Breath) When I sit, I feel like I need to stand up But when I stand up, I feel like I need to sit down I go back and forth, I get stuck in a loop I end up doing nothing and just standing around And even when I finally sit down My anxiety plagues me, I feel like imma drown ‘Cause I can’t stop thinking, I can’t stop thinking ‘bout stuff My brain calls my bluff, so I just sit thinking ‘bout stuff Shit now my hands twitching Shit now I’m heavy breathing Shit now my arm feels so damn numb I feel so dumb, I feel so dumb Constant heart attack in my left arm sometimes breathing gets a little hard My mind is always nervous, my mind always gets on guard So I just sit just to sit and write these bars Shit my eye started to twitch again Why do I have to live my life so god damn stressed If God is out there can He please tell me my purpose What’s the point of this? Fuck what is my fucking purpose (more breathing)

Lyrics: At sixteen I shouldn’t be having existential thoughts But here I am, thinking that my mental health was just a farce It’s all a front I wake up every morning and put this familiar mask on They say I’ve dealt with worse but in this moment this feels like my last one Do you know what it’s like, to beg to cry To pray to weep to whatever the fuck is in the sky “Don’t stray from god’s path” they say, then wave your problems away And take your money just to watch and smile as your mental sanity decays There are certain times when I wish I did drugs Cause, the escape it must give‘s gotta be sublime But until the stars align I plug away at depression Hiding behind these rhymes undermines the pain of my minds inventions and interventions My mind is a hurricane But you keep me grounded Thoughts are crashing down like falling rain But you keep me grounded I don’t feel anything anymore But there you are, waving me into the shore, once more My mind is a hurricane But you keep me grounded Feelings are hard these days I’m always on my guard these days I can’t show my heart these days I can’t play my part these days No one can know about my struggles Ignorance is bliss So instead I hide inside my mind and cry This the part I won’t miss Shit, I can’t do anything these days It just seems like everything won’t go my way My mood is swaying from day to day All I feel is just grey I’m feeling like I’m life’s favorite prey My mind is a hurricane But you keep me grounded Thoughts are crashing down like falling rain But you keep me grounded I don’t feel anything anymore But there you are, waving me into the shore, once more My mind is a hurricane But you keep me grounded For twelve long months I’ve been stuck inside my brain Insecurities running wild yet I smile through the pain I’m just a child, why is this happening to me what does god have to gain From taking everything from a kid with no name Well screw him! I’ll move through it, shine the lights, on my new future I’ll make a new me, make the shoe fit, I don’t need a god just to moralize bullshit Call me a wordsmith, I’m a new kid, rising out of the scattered ashes I’m taking my chances, working off passion I can’t fucking cry? Fine. Imma work faster. Call me the master, the master disaster. Now I got an answer, something to go after This a new chapter, I’m no longer an actor Playing my own life behind a mask made of laughter Find solace in these rhymes, lines, it’s time for me to shine Got you on my mind, reminding me I’m only in my prime You only live once so make it your best life Cut through the strife like a knife, ‘till the happiness is rife (Yeah, Yeah) I’ve got my motivation (Yeah, Yeah) I’m leaving God’s damnation (Yeah, Yeah) I’ve reached my own salvation (Yeah, Yeah) And I’m out of my stagnation My mind is a hurricane But you keep me grounded Thoughts are crashing down like falling rain But you keep me grounded I don’t feel anything anymore But there you are, waving me into the shore, once more My mind is a hurricane But you keep me grounded

Lyrics: I don't really know what I'm saying for most of this